[focusracer]

I firmly believe it's got to do with the weather. I've been just blah and a little crabbier than usual lately, even though I'm elated with my new job. I mean, hell, I was even bored at the strippers 2 weekends ago. Started going for a couple drinks on Sunday night for the beginnning of the week, that seemed to help a bit but it got real bad last week. My best friend Amanda even told me she was worried about me doing something "stupid". She just remembers 2 yrs ago when I slipped into a huge depression for a month, just after my 29th bday in January, quit my job, locked my girlfriend out of the house and out of my life,drank pretty much all day in bed and did nothing.

I didn't want that again so last week I got my ass back to the gym 4 days a week, trying for more and I'm going to the tanning salon twice a week, puppet beat me to it, but that was going to be my first suggestion, artificial sunlight, you can even find the light bulbs to put in your light sockets.

This will probably sound crazy to some but the snow we got on Sat and Sunday out here totally changed my mood. I got out and played in the snow and had fun. It sure as s*** beats the rain. :)